Got you this time... bitch... 12:39 AM

Finally... out of the funk and in the Rafatard's face...
C'mon Roger!

Emo Mark 5:19 PM

Out to buy a new phone?
Make sure it can do SIP calls over WLAN! You can then download Gizmo to make free calls over the internet! And then of course you can just buy a Windows Mobile phone and download Skype for it. Make sure you can download Yahoo! Go on it as well. Mobile yahoo messenger is fun! Don't even get me started on the importance of GPS.

There was 'e'... giving us email, ecard, eHarmony...
Then there was 'i'... giving us ipod, iphone, itunes...
Then came '2.0'... giving us Web 2.0, Skype 2.0, Firefox 2.0...
I introduce to you now 'HD'... giving us HDTV, HD DVD, HD Radio, HD Photo...

WTF is emo?
It's music. It's fashion. It's personality.
It is guys wearing this haircut.
This is funny.
I grabbed the wikipedia definition of an emo personality and it somehow matched my general mood these days.


From Wikipedia:

Emo Personality

When referring to a person's personality and attitude, most definitions of emo hold that an "emo person" is candid about their emotions, sensitive, shy, introverted, broken-hearted, glum, and often quiet.^[6][9] Emo personality is also often connected with writing poetry, which addresses confusion, depression, loneliness, and anger, all resulting from the world's inability to understand the author. Emo poetry uses a combination of any of: a highly emotional tone, stream of consciousness writing, a simple (ABAB) or nonexistent rhyme scheme, references to the flesh, especially the heart, heavy use of dark or depressing adjectives, concern over the mutability of time and/or love, and disregard for punctuation, grammar, and/or spelling. Themes such as life is pain are common.^[10]

Some definitions of emo hold that typical "emo persons" are likely to inflict self-injury, most often by means of cutting, burning, or otherwise mutilating themselves.^{[11] [9]} Some assert that it is cool within the emo subculture to pretend to be suicidal and self-harm,^[12] or that participants self-harm purely for personal enjoyment.^[13]

Emos are also stereotyped to use depressing Internet screen names that sometimes contain straight edge X's, often using ironic sloganry, a poetic sense or cliché (eg. xmourningafterx).^[8]

The word emo can be used as either a noun or adjective.^[6][9]

Adjective (1): All my friends are emo.
Adjective (2): I feel emo today.
Noun: That person is such an emo.

Ok. I am not suicidal and I am not a big fan of burning, cutting and mutilation. But it's neat that there is a cool term to associate me with now. I thought I had mono.

WTF is mono?
Ok. Seriously. Read up. This term is so 90's.

Melancholia 12:39 PM

I don't know how to say this but I think I'm clinically depressed
I have no motivation to do anything
I tire a lot
I turn to books, to games to become what I'm not

I set my alarm for 8 and delay it to 10
I wake up in the middle of the night not knowing where from when

I look to others for distraction
I lie about how I feel
I sometimes wish things were different too much that
I don't trust my eyes to see what is real

I feel there's something wrong when in fact all is fine
I don't deny that at times I wished all these false sorrow were not mine

What has happened to me? Would you know?
Is this a phase that will pass in a week or so?
I continue to this day with drugged induced sleep
For awake I'm alone and in dreams I weep